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44 years old and 3:00 in the morning

on September 3, 2011

Being in your forties and a woman is great in many ways.  You’re pretty much over the peer pressure, your kids are growing up and don’t need constant attention anymore, you have some routine in your life.  Then “the change” begins.  Your body has changed before.  In your late twenties it decided to become allergic for the first time.  When you”re pregnant certain foods don’t agree with you and it doesn’t always go away after the baby is born.  Childbirth gifts you with a wonderful creature who will love you unconditionally (most of the time) and a pouch left over from your stomach stretching for nine months.  This mid-forties change is a whole new ballgame.

I know I’m not going to look like the young cuties on TV no matter how much I diet and exercise, but I felt like it was under control.  I would gain a bit in the winter and lose it again come summer.  My clothes fit and if they didn’t, watching what I ate for a few weeks solved it.  Not any more.  For the first time in my life I have love handles.  And I don’t know where they came from, but I do know I would like them to go back.

I am up at 3:00 am.  A lot.  And it isn’t by choice either.  It doesn’t happen all the time, but when it does I know that I will watch the sun rise in the summer and make my morning coffee a bit earlier in the winter.  If I knew the trigger I could try to avoid it, but there really isn’t a pattern.  For whatever reason, my brain turns on and demands I get up.  My body joins in, clamoring that it can’t lay down one more minute, no position is comfortable, and I am done.  Up and wandering around the living room.  Netflix is a life-saver for me.  That and I like to read, so I can catch up on books for a few hours.

My system is re-arranging itself again, just when I was really getting comfortable with it.  According to the research, I have a few years of this to look forward to.  I can’t wait.

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3 responses to “44 years old and 3:00 in the morning

  1. That used to happen to me in college. Of course it was because I was up till 2AM drinking, I then woke up at 5:30, no I wasn’t hung over but I couldn’t get back to sleep.

  2. Peggy, I completely understand what you are going through…after my hysterectomy last summer I was a very happy girl – no more pain. Unfortunately, it also opened the doors to a new spare tire that rolled on overnight, not to mention my own personal summers in the middle of winter! Hang in there girlie, if you find yourself up at 3am and like to chat…I’ll be here..it’ll be 4pm in Tokyo! 🙂

    • peggymsu89 says:

      Lori,
      I’ll remember the invite! I have a feeling one of those nights will show up again soon, it’s been about 2 weeks. I also have summer in the middle of winter and it makes people that understand what is happening laugh when my face turns red. 🙂 Good luck with the spare tire!

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